When?

          Its so easy to gets caught up in life, that you forget about everything else around you. You forget that your sister always laughs at the lame Pokemon jokes or that your mom is obsessed with Christmas ornaments. When we're caught up in our lives, we tend to forget about the little things that we love about the people around us. Eventually, we become distant, and not remember how important they really are to us.

          Today, I found out that my friend's mom passed away. I haven't talked to my friend in a while and I've only met his mom once, but we were once pretty close and his mom seemed like such a kind woman. In church last Sunday, the gospel was from the book of Matthew and it read, "About that day and hour no one knows, neither the angels of heaven, nor the Son, but only the Father. For as the days of Noah were, so will be the coming of the Son of Man. For as in those days before the blood they were eating and drinking, marrying and giving in marriage, until the day of Noah entered the ark, they knew nothing until the flood came and swept them all away, so too will be the coming of the Son of Man." Things always happens unexpectedly. Whether they're bad or good, you never really know when life will end or when a new life will be created. Only God can see the bigger picture. Only HE knows when it's time for us to leave the Earth.

           It really doesn't matter how long ago you guys have talked, or seen each other. When you hear something, like the lost of a loved one from your friend, it really hits home. I thank God everyday for blessing me with an amazing mother who loves me unconditionally. I can't bare to imagine my mom leaving me. The thought of it is so scary for me, that I choke up everything I think about it. I think that's why its really hitting home for me, because if it was my mom, I really don't know what I would do. 

            Since our lives isn't planned out for us, we should always remember to let the people in our lives know how important they are to us. Especially when we're caught up in our lives so much ,that we forget about the people around us. Always remember and be thankful for the reasons why the people in your life is important to you because life is crazy, and you never know when it's its almost time to leave. 

End of Eras

             The ground will shake tremendously. Buildings will collapse and livestock will be lost. The oceans will rise and take over the earth. Many lives will be lost and the human race may cease to exist.

              Maybe I was over exaggerating a bit, but I feel that phrase could have been the the story line of a great Blockbuster hit. In the song "Closing Time" by Semisonic, there's a line that says, "New Beginnings are born from the End of Old Beginnings." Isn't that something? There is some truth to what the one hit wonder band is implying.  New things form from old things closing. Hence the song title, "Closing time." 

              Anyways, back to where I was going with this post. How do we know when things start to end? Will the oceans rise? Will the earth beneath our feet tremble? I'm questioning this because I have come to a point in my life when I need to make a decision whether it is time to end something that has basically been with me throughout my high school career.

              Let me tell you a little back story about myself, I am currently a senior in high school and I have been with the same guy FOREVER. The guy is also a year older than me, so he is currently attending the local university. We don't see each other on a regular bases because I'm busy and he's busy. Now my problem is, how do you end it with someone that you're comfortable with, someone you've had so many firsts with, someone who you once thought you we're going to be with forever. 

Disclaimer: For those adults or older kids who are reading this, please don't post any rude remarks or smirks about how I'm a young naive girl and the war in Syria is more important about this blog post because if that's the case, click or type this link in your address bar: www.cnn.com. 

              Back to whatever's been bothering me, the truth is, I'm not even sure if I wanna break it off. Maybe you're right close minded readers, I am naive. I decided to start this blog just so I can write about it and maybe the vast knowledge of the internet can lead me to an answer. Now that I'm nearing my exit date out of high school, I'm really starting to think about re-evaluating my life. On top of all the things already on my plate (SATs, Applications, Scholarships, AP Classes), I also have to worry about my failing relationship with my Forever Guy. Its tough and its gotten pretty bad that my physics teacher asked me if I had any friends because I'm always walking around by myself. 

              So I call out to you, oh great, majestic, magical INTERNET. How do you know when its time to let go? What are the signs of an apocolyptic-break-up? Help me oh great ones. Help me figure out what I should be doing. 

-xoxo